I never know its so tough

date: feb 12th 2006
@: forum, Bangalore.

Me and my friend was trying for some movie tickets. first preference was RDB... as usual its sold out. SO we got tickets for Happy(telugu movie). Its 5:30 pm and the movie was @ 10. I was just thinking if we could finish watching another by then ;).

My friend: I am feeling hungry lets have something.
me: Ok, lets go to KFC.
My friend: no, i want some indian food. ( some what seriously look at me )
inside his mind (I am vegeterian idiot).
me: ok, u wont get it here we will go out.

so we went out of forum, there is a small decent looking motel (krishna sagar restaurent). we went in, he order for some stuff and me a coffee.

I picked my coffee and was going back to my table. while i was going back, a noticed a group of 5 ppl(3 guys and 2 girls) entering the restaurent. My table was close to the entrance, so i had to pass by them. the movement i passed them, i felt if one of the girls in that group was my B.Tech classmate but i am not sure if it was her. She has recently shifted to bangalore, but i have not met her yet.

I started having my coffee and started observing her, just to make sure if it wes her. I didn't bothered about other member in that group and i am sure that she has not noticed me. Its around 2-3 mins i have been observing her ( and i still could not conclude if it was her). btw my friend is still waiting to get his order.

Suddenly she looked at me......... even found that i was eyeing her. Momently i diverted my eyes off her.
(inside my mind) U havent done anything wrong, so y r u scared ??? .......... i dont have an answer. never in my life (astleast as far as i remember) i have done that, except when i have done some mistake.

My friend has brought his stuff and sat beside me. I explained him the whole incident, now he started enjoying at the whole scene. I looked at heragain after a while, within a sec she looked at me. I felt really uncomfortable again and took off my eyes. ( I dont know why, but my heartbeat has raised and i could feel it. i am a bit tensed too again for no reason).

Again i looked at her, yoooooo she looked back at me immediately, but this time i didn't divert my eyes, (but my heartbeat is rising and i was tensed..) still i looked her. To my surprise, she havent diverted he eyes off me.....
Inside i was relling myself... come on, look, look............
After around 4-5 secs, i have to finally give up.
my mind says: (huh... waht is this???................... I dont know, i ahve no answer)

this happened a other 2 times, but everytime i was beaten.

friend: I think she is also eyeing u....
inside me: after this statement, my belief that she is my classmate has become stronger.
so now, i have to confirm if i am right.

Suddenly, a cell rings ( from some other table). Yes, i got the idea. i have her mobile number, so y dont i call her. If she lifts she is the one. Simple idea right, but i dont know why it havent struck me before. The movement i got this idea, she picked up her mobile, excused her friends and started dailing some number. And she started walking closer to my table...( still looking at me). I am really embarassed....for no reason. Adding to this, even before i picked my phone from my pocket, it started ringing....
inside me: Oh god, i think it must be her.
i picked it up, it was not from her (its from other friend, for whom i have booked tickets). I lifted it up... probably shouted at him and ended the conversation. poor guy, i got emberassed cos of someone and someone else was victimized for that.
all during the phone conversation, she stood very close to my table, and i never dared to look at her. she ended her conversation and went back to her table.

Now she started looking at me and smiling with her friends. So now what should i think????
- has she recognized me and waiting for me to recognize????
- or is she celebrating her victory over me (staring)????
- or is she just enjoying with her friends
what ever it is i am really emberassed, and my friend is enjoying all this and even teasing me.....

After a while it stuck me... u havent confirmed with ur mobile idea. (my brain went dead i suppose... i am not able think at all). Ok then i picked up my mobile, call her number. Its ringing, mean while my eyes were back towards her. Oh god, she is looking at her mobile and smiling. I felt more frustrated...... after a few rings, got an answer (subscriber not answering, call later)..........
what does this mean????
- is she my classmate and is enjoying the whole scene??
- or is she just enjoying with her friends??
i have no answer.

After a while, they walked off from the restaurent( surprisingly havent ordered anyhting). Even before going out... she stared at me with a smile. I got a call after some time, it was my classmate. After the conversation i confirmed that it was not her. I was a bit relieved then

MORAL OF THE STORY:
Its really tough to bear attraction. I dont have any idea how girls bear it.

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